BIG feet

i have big feet. Size you ask? 10. yes, size 10. i hate it so much that it's sooo difficult to find the right shoes for yourself and that the outlets always ALWAYS do NOT have your size. The biggest size they have is always 9 and that's as far as you can go. So, from young, i've always had that insecurity of having such big feet and i hate it soo much. But, i realise that even though you find that your feet is big, many others ( though not all), do not care and also do not think so. There are people who think they're too fat or too tall or too short but many people especially do not think so. So even though i still have that teeny tiny (ok, maybe a bit more than that cause recently i've bought a shoe and it looks like it's size 11 that i cannot refund and it's soo god damned expensive that i cannot waste not wearing it) bit of the 'big feet' insecurity, i'll try to not harp on it not much. it's not good to worry so much beacause you live only once and of course you want to live it the best way you can.