Think my head might blow up

Hope i have enough brainjuice to carry on studying tommow. i am going to sleep soon and hope i'll sleep well. Everyone reading this please support me in spirit because i am really scared to sleep and wake up to see it's only 5+ am Please give me spirit and strength to overcome this battle that might just determine where my life will lead. I hope that i  will stay calm tmr and not panic. Please suppport me, everyone

Module

I am studying for my Law module examinations and have of 4 topics to study, i have only completed one. About to complete that is. I am still scared. I am scared that i won't be able to pass this module and get to next term or sem or 2nd year. I know that it may be unlikely but there is a chance that i may have to retain for the next year. i am scared that i will fail and i don't intend to fail! i don't want to fail. So i have been studying the whole week last week for the other modules which i had more confidence of passing and was more important because of the exam dates. But now, i am starting to worry about my grades. I don't care about High GPA anymore. As long as i get to the next sem or year, i will grateful. I just hope my mum comes home soon because i am frightened about all this and i know that though she will scold me for being so stressed up, she will comfort me. I just hope Mum comes home soon.

Examinations

in about 4 days more, my exams will start and though i have completed my Principles of management reveision and half of my Events materials Deco, i have not started on Law. I feel very scared right now and i feel like on the verge of break down. My heart keep beating fast, can't sleep well and i have been having a lot of nervous break downs. i don't want to do this anymore... Why can't there only be two topics tested? why so many? Do the teachers/lecturers think we're superman/wonder woman. We're not that strong. Not ALL students handles stress well you know. I really don't want to do this. I really want to cry so much. i want my mom with me right now so that she can tell me everything will be okay. That no matter what, we have our families and friends with us to hang on to.

IT Homework

Just now, about an hour ago, when i logged on to facebook, i realised that there was another Photoshop homework. Immediately, i panicked and quickly started to do the tutorial. Boy was i flustered. I cried thinking that i will never get the job done and also that i dunno how to do. But on facebook, a lot of my classmates also did not know what to do except one. She helped gave instructions through facebook on how to do some parts of the homework and she really saved my life. i cried 3 times and was literally about to break down but i told myself to stay calm and continue with the work first. That the crying doesn't help anything. Just emailed the work 3 minutes ago and i really feel relieved right now. Sigh... Why do life have to be so difficult... I'm so scared that i will go crazy from stress...

LOVE II

Why do love have to be so painful? :( Why is it that when the woman who now 'owns' your man looks like the ugliest bimboest evilest person in  the world and girls who look like her belongs in the same category? Why am i so filled with hatred for the woman?

Devil inside of me: Of course you're filled with hatred for that evil witch. She STOLE your man! She knew that you like him and what did she do? Partly seduced him and fully accept his confession!

Angel in me: She is not entirely  in the wrong, it is the man. Even you were wrong. You should not have started to ignore him and be cold with a bit of bad habit from him. He liked you and you blew your chance. It is time to let go.

Devil: What let go?! This isn't over! He liked you before and might still do! So take revenge against the bi*** who stole your man!! You still have a chance! Just start flirting with him and everything will fall into place. :)

Angel: He loves the girl with him now. Do you want to ruin a relationship? It is no different from wrecking a marriage! She is no longer the third party, it's you. Do you really want to be the one waits forever and be 'that' hated woman?

Devil: Hate Schmate! Who cares? This is for love! You are fighting for LOVE!!!! Don't you want to be 'the one' for him? The one he loves? The one he cares about?

Angel: He cares and loves the girl he's with right now, so please, step down. He is no longer yours. There are plenty of faithful intelligent dashing men out there for you to love :) Give them a chance :)

Clarification

Ok to people reading my posts, i know that you all must be very confused as to why my latest posts have been like i have bipolar disorder. Well, no, i do not :) And i am not depressed either. It's just that i feel a bit lonely like many singles out there may feel. So, as a Virgo, I would of course immense myself with work but eventually still harp on the that problem. I hope you all didn't feel like i was being whiny or anything. Sad thing really, that Virgos love to worry a lot.

Book Lover

I do not understand why some people can be so inconsiderate when it comes to borrowing things. I know a lot of people who are kind and considerate and courteous too but there is always one or two who will just borrow things from others and
never return the items. Or even fold dog ears on the pages of library books OR dirty books that do not belong to them OR ....etc.
There are soo many things that i do not know that people will do. All i know is this- they have no EQ. Do they know that owners of books love their books? That those books belong to them, Not to the borrowers? There may be some book lovers
who do not mind their books getting dirty and stuff but there are ALSO A NUMBER OF PEOPLE who love their books to even wrap them in plastic covers so the original covers won't scratch or get dirty (My dear friend does that but i don't)? There are
those who immediately sanitise their books' covers when they get home once people return them their books (So embarrasing, but that's me... Why? i really can't stand it ok! The people might scratch their butt or dig their nose and continue reading
my book! The last person i lent my book to actually brought my book to the toilet and had it NEARLY drop inside the toilet bowl!) So don't blame ME if i wanted to sanitise.
Therefore, please respect book owners' books. They may be just papers bound together but to book lovers LIKE ME, they're our babies.

Proposal

I have an event proposal to do and did not know until just now when my class rep posted on Facebook that the hard copy must be handed in to her BY FRIDAY!!!!! I am sooo DEAD!!!! i know that my proposal already look quite okay but there are still lots of things to be done and EDITED and i still haven't done a thing since i last emailed my teacher the draft!!! ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
if only i wasn't sick yesterday. i could have done more.i am sooo rushed for time now! and what the hell am i still here blogging? Gosh... Too addicted to blogging already :)

You are the ONLY exception

After listening to 'you are the only exception' by paramore, i felt a bit sad. I really want someone to love but i do not have one. I want someone to want me and love me, give me a sense of security but i do not have one. Seeing couples everywhere, i feel so depressed about the reason i do not have a boyfriend. I am pretty and smart. I know i am admirable to an extent that people can love me but what is the reason i do not have a boyfriend? i don't get it! Maybe i should flirt more... but i do not have someone i like to flirt with... And even if i do, i'm quite shy... Damn... I should do something about this...

Paramore:
When i was younger i saw
my daddy cry and curse at the wind
he broke his own heart and i watched
as he tried to reassemble it
And my mama swore
she would never let herself forget
And that was the day that i promised
I'd never say of love if it does not exist

ill

I have a headache, stomach pain and a slight fever. Just went to the doctor just now it he said that my stomach is upset due to food poisoning. Yup... i still don't feel so good... Plus, i have a project due on wednesday but a girl from my team have not sent me the email of a question's answer yet. I don't get why people can be so inconsiderate. So irresponsible. I can't even shout or be angry right now because of the headache... i just hope i get better soon by the end of the day and finish the project. Will have to talk to the team mate later. I am sure she will give me the 'who made you boss' face but i don't care, my grade is on the line now. My headache... Have to get to sleep...

Halloween Horrors

I just had an audition to be a scare actor at halloween horrors in Night Safari 2011. There was a list that said to choose the few characters and act it out. The few characters are:
- Pontianak
- Mad Scientist
- Lunatic
- Butcher
- Lost child
and more that i can't remember... Anyways, i think i flunk it and answered one question badly. This was the question:
Qn: When you're scaring some people, there will be some individuals who might attack you, what will you do?

My Ans: (laughs a bit) I'll run!

I should have actually said: i'll run and not because i am scared they'll keep beating me but because it won't solve things as my make up will keep on scaring them.

However, the fact still stays that my interview didn't go well. So i am gonna list out the advantages and the disadvantages if my interview was a success...

Advantages:
- Experience
- I get to scare people
- See how this event will be handled like 'behind the scenes'

Disadvantages:
- I will have to scream myself hoarse
- Pain for the throat
- Stand for long hours so it's tiring for the legs

I hope they will at least say who got the part or something latest tomorrow or coming Sunday. I kind of hate the interviews where they don't tell you at all that you did not get the job or part.

GLEE

Yes, i love Glee! The songs are just so well chosen to suit each episode and also, the talented actors and actresses. The cast is a triple threat, to be able to dance, sing and act. Now that is how hollywood worked initially but then it became more flexible. Glee brought back that 'old' hollwood criteria and even showed me that other song genres are quite nice to listen to. Never in my life have i thought to ever like Justin Bieber's or Lady Gaga's songs but here i am singing along to them! Glee is like the medium for which i can listen to new, fantastic songs.
 Plus, other than the great songs, there are the guys...

Chord Overstreet (Sam Evans)

Harry Shum, Jr (Mike Chang)

      Darren Criss (Blaine Anderson)

They are just soo cute. Chord Overstreet has the looks of a a greek god and the voice of an angel... When he sung 'Baby' in Glee Season 2, i fell immediately in love with that song. And almost every other song he sung! He is just so.... Sigh.... Plus, like i said...

Body of a Greek God...

Then there's Harry Shum (Mike), He can DANCE and look so HOT at the same time. Everytime 'New Directions' sing and dance, i'll look at Mike always first. He just dances sooo WELL. I love the way he dances, he just looks soo...  

SEXY

 Then the next best dancer is Brittany played by Heather Morris.

She dances soo great

I like Diana Argon.i've read that she is kind

and stuff. the real her i mean. I like her in 'I am number four'. Hope to see more of her in the movie theatres :)

Glee produces the best songs but weird story plots.

Hot Hot Days

For a few days now, the weather has been crazily hot and humid. It's like being in a sauna for the whole day AND night. It's like 32.5 degrees celcius the whole day. Once i stepped out of my house and stood in the sunlight, immediately, a bead of sweat rolls down my forehead. Can you just imagine it!?!?? I can't wait for the monsoon season to arrive. It's not going to rain for some time right now, i know it.

here is the weather forecast in my area:

Current conditions as of 8:00 PM SGT

Mostly Cloudy

Feels Like:

97 °F

Barometer:

29.77 in and rising

Humidity:

59 %

Visibility:

6.21 mi

Dewpoint:

73 °F

Wind:

SSE 2 mph

UV Index:

--

UV Description:

Low

Sunrise:

6:54 AM

Sunset:

7:04 PM

90°

High: 91° Low: 79°

and i have no idea what all that just meant

Pipi and Snow

The Adventure of the Duckies
Once upon a time
In the Chia’s household
There lived two ducks, Pi Pi and Snow
Happily in the water
And quacking on land
The children of the Chia's loved them
However yet noisy they became
So in the box the two ducks went
And that was when the horror began
They visited the ducks and played some games
Together, inseparable they became
Nightfall arrives; it’s time for bed.
"See you tomorrow!" the youngest child said
But little did they know of the danger ahead
Once upon a time
Besides the Chia’s household
There lived a cat
With a name no one knew
The children of the Chia’s fed him fish
But yet greedy it became
He wanted more and the ducks were its aim
2am, Papa Chia heard a sound
He quickly ran out but it was too late
In the box lay one little duck
Quacking for its mate
The children of the Chia’s visited the duck
It wouldn’t eat, sleep nor drink
For how pitiful, depressed it was
Oh what poor little thing
It was 2pm, outside the Chia’s household
Laid the duck motionless and cold
All of them cried, the family of seven
But rejoice though, they’re now in heaven
Once upon a time
In the Chia’s household
There lived two ducks, Pi Pi and Snow.
In memory of Pi Pi and Snow

Someone's watching over me

i love this song. It really has a lot of meaning. Tells you to keep on moving, keep on striving and keep on believing.
Lyrics:

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me

Someone's watching over me

Youtube URL: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hCoViK0G43Y

The Fine Art of Letting Go - Astrology.com

The Fine Art of Letting Go - Astrology.com

Adapt

I have finally learnt to adapt to life in my new school. It took some time for me to adjust to life in a new learning environment but it is better now. Sometimes you have to learn to let go of the old to embrace the new. I may still have a little difficulties with some things, i have finally learnt to do my work well and experience the brand new things awaiting me in this new school. I will miss my friends from time to time, that is expected and i will never forget them, but i need to live the life i am in right now or i'll regret not living this period of my life to the fullest like i did in sec school. As long as i have my friends, i can survive this. There may be many very different people in this school, and of so wide a range of personalities, but each and every one of them are special in their own way. There may be people with a very scary or cold exterior but very lovable interior. Also the vice versa. Some hateable and some fun to be with. It depends on who you choose to be friends with that counts.

Handsome GUY

I watched a movie recently and boy have i gone gaga... The movie is a hillary duff movie: Raise Your Voice. The movie was exceptionally BORING and it was the guy that kept me watching. The scenes with the last performances are the only best parts in the movie including the guy 'Kiwi' with his love interest. i liked the song 'someone's watching over me' by Hillary Duff. It's sooo lovely...

HANDSOME RIGHT?!?!!???!?!!?!

He has DIMPLES and CURLY WILD hair... Sigh... Sooo CUTE!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! I THINK I'M GONNA FAINT......

How to Study more Effectively

I have finally learnt to not be stressed about things unnecessarily and go with the flow. Though at times you have to study and revise on things, keep it at a time when your brain works the most effectively. Then, you will be both efficient and effective. This will therefore give you time to relax at the other hours. BUT that does not mean that you don't study the rest of the hours, it means that you can just read or flip through to get a hang of what it is about that you will study in your 'studying' hours. For me, the time when my brain is the most effective is 5pm to 9pm. Those hours are when i am the most effective. that's about... 4 hours :) A substantial amount of time to study. My brain is the least effective though, from about 12pm to 4pm. Those are the hours where i can't pay attention easily.In the morning, it's ok but it's better at the 5 to 9pm period. So there you go, those are the times where i start hitting the books :) so if anyone wants to study the most effectively, know yourself FIRST.

LOVE

I really want some love right now. By the love i am mentioning is a boyfriend love. I want some comfort and security given by a guy. To be in his arms and feel his warmth. I want him to stroke my hair or my arm unconciously and for him to say he loves me always. That i am his one and only and even though he may be busy, he will make time for me. To feel special. And i will be his best friend and i, his.
To hold each other's hands and look at each other in the eyes with the passionate love i always see in movies or read in books. I want a guy who loves me and i love him. A love that is pure and powerful. A love that belongs only to the both of us. To know each other's flaws but still love each other deeply. A never ending love that exists only in fairytales. Still, who knows? Maybe it will happen if i still believe in LOVE...