Lost

I think that everyone gets lost some time in their lives, whether they're in their forties or in their twenties. There always come a time when you stop and ask yourself what you really want to do with your life. A few of us get that epiphanies we're all waiting for though.

I have always thought and desired that I would one day have a job I love, that I would not stress day and night for. That even if i get burned out from all the endless energy that requires of me for the job, I would still say, "Hey, I love my job and that's all that counts!"

I've met many people in my 20 years of living on earth: a bus accident/crash survivor, an ex deep sea diver, a guy who used to race motorcycles with others dead in the night even when it was dangerous and could cause lives (luckily no one got hurt) et cetera... and I don't believe that they regretted any of the steps they took in their 'journey,' the good and the bad.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that sometimes, your dreams may not lead you down the paths you would have thought and the paths you're going to take may actually lead you to where you'll ultimately love to be. Life is full of screw ups, full of possibilities as well as ups and downs but it will always bring you to where you're supposed to be. Because if it's meant to be, it will be.

And one day, you won't regret that step you took.

Growing Up

In the internship that has passed 2 weeks ago, I've learnt a couple of things that has opened my eyes to so much more.

Number 1, money. I realised that it will never be enough no matter how much you earn, no matter how much you spend. One time or another, something bad will crop up and you would need to spend money you didn't want to in the first place. In other words, saving for a rainy day. 2 weeks ago, a tooth at the back of my mouth began to hurt really bad till the point where i wanted to cry so badly. I rushed to the dentist and she chided me about not having a regular dental checkup. My dad ended up spending over $250 to solve the problem and I can't even eat solid food right now. Pathetic right?

Moving on, I've learnt my lessons:
- Prevention is always always better than cure
- Have a dental checkup every 6 months
- Save for rainy days

Money is important and I'm not going to waste it on material things too often from now on.


Number 2, Courage. This isn't about being able to catch that creepy lizard or touch that cat, it's about being able to face the day with a positive mind. There are so many things in life that will bring you down, people who can't stop scolding or chiding you for whether it is your fault or not etc. etc. etc. You just need to make sure you're not going to lose that innocence or sense of good in life. Do not let anything take you down and remember that compared to all the disasters and tragedies in life, your problem is much easier to solve. You will ultimately become less stressed.


Number 3. People will hate you. You may be the reddest most juiciest apple in the world and there will still be people who hates apples. The only reason people do this to others is because they're afraid of something we have. And also that they don't know us. It's easy to hurt people when you don't know them. Which is why I've made a point to remember that each person has their own story to tell and the reason they turned out the way they were. Just like how serial killers were never born with the natural intent to kill, most of the time, it's the tough childhood to blame.


Number 4. Look Pretty. That's the most important thing. Countless studies and most basest observation has shown that attractive people tend to get more out of life. Like how parents tend to give in to their more attractive children, how the handsome people get paid more than average looking people, how we tend to see attractive people as friendly and approachable. Being pretty gives you an edge, a second look, sometimes a second chance.


Number 5. Always be alert to your surroundings. Because you tend to lose out more when you don't. For example, my colleague once checked in at a hotel where she was supposed to stay at for the next 3 days. On her second night back to the hotel after a long day of sightseeing, the receptionist said to her, "hi mdm! Here is your key, I hope your day was a pleasant one!" Turned out that the receptionist made an effort to remember her. This may not probably be the best example to explain this point but I am sure you got the gist. Which is to be observant to everything.

So there you go, the few things I've learnt from my internship~~