Being Yourself

Each and every one of us were born originals. We did what we wanted with never ever considering the consequences. We played outside in the backyard or the neighbourhood playground or even the park wih the simple agenda of wanting to have some fun. The world was our playground.

Growing up, we started to do more. Probably start up a hobby like cycling or collecting pokemon cards or whatever was the craze as we were growing up. Then whenever teachers ask us what our hobbies were, we'd say the common answers like swimming or cycling cause sometimes, we simply have no idea.

As we begin our new years with the anticipation of doing something much better than the year before, one time or another, we realise how time passed so fast. It felt just yesterday that i was a freshie at my secondary school. Pouring through books after books of math assigments, trying not to look at my math teacher in class for fear of her calling my name to ask a question or daring to stand up to someone or asking a teacher for her advice or stuff. It all comes back to you the moment you start thinking about it.

As we grow, we learn that it's stupid to stick or to have stuck to any status quo in high school/sec school. In a place where most of our lives change, the pace at which we're nurtured to become the future's leaders, where we learn that being ourselves is not wrong because who cares a shit what others think. They're not us. They never lived the same way we did, they never walked the steps we took. And who are they to judge who the hell i am. But this is the kind of thing many people get sucked into. Sometimes even ourselves. And we have to try and crawl back to the surface where we're at peace with ourselves..  most times, no such damned thing happens. Cuz everyday is a new beginning, with new challenges, new meaner people, new stresses, blah blah blah. We just try as we might to be who we want to be and stay sane in this crazy world :)

Through those few years in high school/sec school, we had fun, we slogged for our grades, we fell in love, have fights with friends, played pranks, called people names, had people call us names, try getting into others' good books and sort of just go with the flow on everything but in all, doing nothing wrong, or what we thought is right. Over the years, we shred away our original selfs, erasing the bad habits, getting good ones, try as we might to not get into any bad influence and if we did, try as we could to rid ourselves off it. All in all, we started growing up, phasing ourselves into the real world where the it will either really be our playground, heaven or hell. More likely the latter.

Soon, we really do have to get into people's good books, especially when we need allies or friends in the outside world, or get a job/promotion/etc. We metaphorically put on our masks the moment we stepped outside our homes. For every person, we have a different persona, or similar ones. We begin to become who we're not. For some, it becomes permanent. For others, we slowly show our true selves.

 At the end of the day, one of the things that the school never really taught us was be ourselves. But that's something we need to learn on our own. Everybody else have their own life to attend to, lessons they have to learn too and the thing is... they can't live your life for you.