Singleton

I do a great job at being single, actually very experienced in that field. Now that i'm almost going to reach the big 2-0 in a few days, the fear of never having someone special on my side gnawed me. Sometimes when i'm just taking a stroll outside or at the shopping mall and see a couple being even remotely romantic, i'd give a mental f**k you.

I just don't get it. Sometimes you'd see a not so pretty girl with a hot guy or an average guy with a hot girl and it just makes you wonder, "What the hell happened that got them together?" I just don't get it! What IS their secret?

There was one time when i thought if i should have standards on who i want as a boyfriend but then i re-analysed that and decided, to heck with that! We're choosing someone who would be our partner for the rest of our lives, i think we have a right to be picky. We shouldn't settle for someone we have no special feelings for because both parties would just end up miserable, leading to slow and painful death for the relationship. For example, my friend, Wendy, finally relented and started going out with a guy who kept chasing her for almost 3 months. Fortunately, it lasted only an excruciating 2 or 3 weeks because she didn't really feel comfortable being just alone with him. Every time they went on a date, she'd bring along another friend. AWKWARD. The way i saw it was she went out with him because she wanted a boyfriend since she never had one before. And the both of them ended up no longer being friends. Sad isn't it?

As for me, you can say i had my share of experiences but it's nothing actually. My first confession was at my secondary school canteen. It was after physical education and i sat down on a bench with 2 other girls and one guy from my class. We started chatting and just as i was drinking from a bottle, the guy blurted out to me to be his girlfriend. And i choked on the water. The other two girls just stared at him. I wiped myself off and asked him to repeat what he said but he just kept quiet. Oh well..

My second confession was by a stranger and it was weird. Click here for the story but scroll to the fifth point on 'romance'.

Then there were times when it wasn't a confession but things that led up to one. I had 4 and i sorely wished that i liked at least one because they are all really nice guys but just weren't for me.

Guy 1: Texted me good morning and asked me how my day was every day until it started getting creepy. And how do i know how my day was when it hasn't even started yet?
Guy 2: Asked me out to lunch every Wednesday of the week without fail despite telling him i had something on every Wednesday.
Guy 3: Played 'Love Story' on the guitar for me one night when we were studying together and walked me home. Texted me a lot of times.
Guy 4: A good friend who i know likes me but never confessed because he knew i'd turn him down

I actually liked guy 3 for a while but he never confessed or anything no matter how many hints i gave him until i eventually gave up. Months later, my guy friend of mine told me guy 3 definitely liked me but was probably shy which was why he didn't make a big gesture or anything. But the moment had passed...

You know what, I think i'd do a fantastic job at being a girlfriend! I love to read books, watch action movies and romantic comedies, i love the great outdoors, take me bungee jumping and i'll say "WHEN?" I love trying new things and i actually don't mind if my would-be-boyfriend told me he watches porn sometimes. Because, come on, which guy doesn't? There's so many great things about me, so CUPID, come on!!! Give me a great guy already! It's not like i'm asking for much, just handsome, faithful, tall, humorous, loves to watch movies and must also like reading books so when we have a vacation by the beach, we'd just sit next to each other with our legs intertwined while we read our books. ALSO, he must loove trying new things with me like tango, art class or tandem skydiving. CUPID, ARE YOU COPYING ALL THIS DOWN?

Ok, maybe i have a short temper but that's just a small issue :)