How to Study more Effectively

I have finally learnt to not be stressed about things unnecessarily and go with the flow. Though at times you have to study and revise on things, keep it at a time when your brain works the most effectively. Then, you will be both efficient and effective. This will therefore give you time to relax at the other hours. BUT that does not mean that you don't study the rest of the hours, it means that you can just read or flip through to get a hang of what it is about that you will study in your 'studying' hours. For me, the time when my brain is the most effective is 5pm to 9pm. Those hours are when i am the most effective. that's about... 4 hours :) A substantial amount of time to study. My brain is the least effective though, from about 12pm to 4pm. Those are the hours where i can't pay attention easily.In the morning, it's ok but it's better at the 5 to 9pm period. So there you go, those are the times where i start hitting the books :) so if anyone wants to study the most effectively, know yourself FIRST.

LOVE

I really want some love right now. By the love i am mentioning is a boyfriend love. I want some comfort and security given by a guy. To be in his arms and feel his warmth. I want him to stroke my hair or my arm unconciously and for him to say he loves me always. That i am his one and only and even though he may be busy, he will make time for me. To feel special. And i will be his best friend and i, his.
To hold each other's hands and look at each other in the eyes with the passionate love i always see in movies or read in books. I want a guy who loves me and i love him. A love that is pure and powerful. A love that belongs only to the both of us. To know each other's flaws but still love each other deeply. A never ending love that exists only in fairytales. Still, who knows? Maybe it will happen if i still believe in LOVE...

CCA problems solved

Yes, i have solved my CCA troubles. but it was a definitely difficult process. Actually not really...
I wanted to join tennis but suddenly as i was about to join after 2 more people, the people in charge announced that there were no more vacancy. My world tore APART!! i was so devastated. I really wanted to join so had no choice but to quickly find a back up CCA which decided later be Badminton. Yes!! i told myself that i finally have a Weekly CCA that provides adequate CCA points. Suddenly lo and behold!!! i find out that i have a principles of management make up lesson on the trial days for badminton... So obviously, Badminton is a lost case. So i have been worried the whole time about getting a CCA during my Law lesson. Thankfully, Law ended a bit earlier that i was able to quickly get to the mentoring to get that CCA back. It was about to end in 10 minutes! Thank Goodness that i reached in time to say that i didn't want to quit that CCA. Yes, i now have a CCA to get my CCA points :)
My world is stable again :)

Matters of the heart

I've been stressed out for the last few days as i've said in the last few posts. At least tomorrow's saturday, i don't have to be so tensed then.
I emailed a Co-Curricuar Activity (CCA) club that i wanted to cancel my application to their CCA and now i kind of regret it because my sister said that mentoring (the CCA i wanted to join) can help garner a lot of CCA points. So i kind of regret cancelling that CCA application. You know, there should be a button on the laptop that says 'retrrieve email sent'. Damn it....
Then i have projects to handle and more are coming up. Sometimes it gets more and more stress. But i do have to learn how to keep stress at a certain level and not let it get to me. Have to enjoy my poly life. Though that stress won't entirely go away just like that *snap fingers, i'll try to not let that get to me.

Troubled

I currently have a lot of things to worry about and i have no idea what i want. I want to go mentoring to get a lot of CCA points but i also want to go tennis which i think will be interesting but gives little CCA points. So, i'm not sure... Too much stress nowadays damnit... the following things are what is troubling me right now:

- CCAs to join
- Projects to complete
- Modules to revise
- Love Life

Yup, the life of a teenage student. How i wish that life would be much easier for a teenager. I did stress up a lot the past few days and my lecturer told me to relax and enjoy poly life while i'm still a teenager. Therefore, i am following her advice at the moment. I'll still stress up but i'll keep in mind to relax and enjoy life before i'm an adult :)

Schloarship No No

Yup, i didn't get the scholarship alright. This is just pathetic. I feel like my life is going through a downward spiral. I really wish all this bad luck will stop. This is just stupid. I hate this so much.
You know, maybe it's not that bad. I am already stressed as it is and if i get the scholarship, i'll worry about it all the time. In the end, i'll end up being more stressed. But still, i really wanted the scholarship... I've never been rejeted that way before. I always got my first choice. Like when i put my sec school as my 1st choice and i got in. Then i chose which course and poly i wanted to get in and i got in. I wanted to get into Normal Academic from NT and i got in. I worked really hard and this stupid idiotic panel of scholarship judges DID NOT CHOOSE ME?!?!?!?!
Well what can you do.... See how stressed i look? I should really cool down... hate the shortlisting of people judges. All i wanted was a chance to show that i was worth the scholarship but NOOO you won't let me.
ok, it seemed that i shouldn't get that scholarship huh? My life's complicated

Depression Mode

I have been very depressed lately. I miss my teachers and close friends from secondary school. I have been getting more and more projects and most modules i do not understand. The first time that i have felt helpless was during O levels, Geography paper day. It was because on that day the paper was also combined with Principles of Accounts (POA). Both of which have theories for you to memorise. I cried a lot for that period of time, was stressed out and really needed a break. In the end, my Parents talked to me and tried to tell me as long as i tried my best, everything is going to be ok. But i really couldn't sink that in because i was going through my O's and this will be the deciding factor of where i will go in the future. And although i had gotten a B3 for my POA, i've achieved an A1 for my humanities. It was still a difficult period of time for me. I am extremely thankful for my mum and dad for being there for me the whole time. Especially my Mom. She's made many sacrifices for me :)
Now, i am on the 2nd most difficult period of my life. I've never felt so blur before and i have never felt any way i feel like now. Projects seem to keep coming to me and i feel like i cannot survive it. It is really difficult esp for one module. I am really scared that i will fail to get the GPA i want. I am really scared about this module and i really need to de-stress. So tomorrow morning i will go jogging to relive that stress. Yes, Jogging is one of many good ways to relieve stress though i rarely have the time to do that now. i just hope that i can survive this semester and hang on. My best friend told me that. I miss her too. Though as short tempered as she may be, at least she is a true friend who will always be there for me as well as my other close friend. At least we're meeting again soon. That is what that's keeping me alive right now. To see my friends again...

Scholarship process

arghh... I have to wait till the 27th april to see if i am shortlisted for the scholarship... i hope i'll get shortlisted!!! Just another 3 more days till the results... You know, i've a classmate who said that she saw that she had gotten rejected already. That it said so on the website. But then i went to the website and it said to wait till the 27 of april to find out if you have been shortlisted. So i am totally confused as to where the hell she got that information. Maybe i have a chance? i hope so...
You know, i've already borrowed a book from the library about interviews. So in case i am shortlisted for the interview to get the scholarship, i am going to read up on interviews, making mine a successful one :)

Poly Life

Being in my new poly for the first week, i learnt a lot of things. For one thing, being a poly student, your notebook AKA laptop will become an integral part of your life. It is your flesh, blood and sweat and if you lose it, your life will become a living hell. This is because the laptop itself is expensive and that it contains all your hard work, your research, your projects and your essays/ proposals.So i as hell will always and i mean ALWAYS keep an eye on mine.
Secondly, being a poly student, you must be able to be flexible. This is because there will be projects and this will in turn mean team mates. You must be able to juggle different projects with different teams all the time. There will be times where you wish that your teams are the people you're comfortable with but that will never happen. So one advice b4 you go into a poly course, start to work outside your comfort zones because it will train you to be more flexible.
Lastly, remember that friends will also be important. They can help you with your modules and tutorials. In every way possible, they will be there when you need the help.